Scattered Thoughts 1

Being misunderstood is my curse. A curse that I have lived with for many years. People tend to paint me in the wrong light, so the finished product is just a completely wrong interpretation of me. It angers me, but I can't argue down everyone who does not understand me to try and make them see. So I let it be. I would much rather be true and kind to those who know me than to strong arm my identity for the average peeps. It's not in my DNA. So each day as the time tics away I stay humble and I numb myself to those with loose lips. Those who speak quick without valid evidence, but try to heckle my existence. As if they have the key to what a real human should be. All I know how to do is be me, so why not accept me for me. But to me it's clear that there is fear in what you don't know. There is fear due to the things I don't show. I fear that you will never know. What the true intentions be when it comes down to the flow.

Am I Strong Enough?

I have finally reached my next crossroad. It's been a long journey down that lonely highway. Down this road I saw gas stations pumping hope, and emotional clothing store with the perfect emotion for your size. Various restaurants of temptation serving up full coarse of lustful pleasure at your request. I saw churches of greed, courtrooms of swag, hospitals filled with the back stabbers, banks filled with responsibility and museums filled with my past. Filled with past crossroads that I traveled through. Some I had been forced to visit several times because I never went down the right road, but when I did finally walk that journey, I learned a lesson. I learned values, and responsibilities that would assure I would make it down my next road unscathed. There may be some possible heartache but it's nothing that a human was created not to over come. But I'm now at the crossroad we all may bear at some point in our life. Some sooner than others. I don't want to make the wrong decision. What if the wrong road is a dead end road. Will I be strong enough to walk back through those obstacles?

Excuse me... You have something in your eye

I just love how people are so quick to place blame and point fingers as if their closet only contains clothes and shoes.

There is a man somewhere in this world who hates men who beat on women, but he rapes little boys.

There is a woman somewhere who would never cheat on her husband with a man, but will eat the hell out some p****

There is a pastor who pays his tithes and offering faithfully but doesn’t pay his child support.

There is a doctor that’s a serial killer. There is a breast cancer survivor deliberately giving people AIDS.

We all have things that we are passionate about and probably would never ever do in our lifetime, but let’s not forget about that things that we have done or what we ARE doing that others may frown upon.

“How can you get the splinter out my eye, when you have a log in yours?”….

Busting Windows eh?

I’m starting to almost understand why women go around and slash men tires and bust out windows (I WOULD NEVER DO THAT….. TOO SCARED). I see firsthand the EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER some women are placed on.  It’s not right and a lot of times men have these women hearts and minds on a string playing with them like puppets. A lot of times I don’t see stupidity when I look at these women faces and hear their stories. I see hurt and love intertwined into one (Deadly Combination). I went through it, so I know it’s not easy. But it takes a STRONG WOMAN to let go and move on. It takes a STRONG WOMAN to say, I can’t take it anymore. It takes a STRONG WOMAN to realize that although her love for him may never subside, she has to do what’s best for her. Ladies don’t slash his tires, slash his heart. Walk away, Let Go, Move on and Live life. This world is a beautiful place filled with beautiful people. You’re bound to find the one meant for you in due time. #DONTBENOONESFOOL

GM

Communication is the Best Policy

There is a great lack of communication between man and woman today. It seems as if a lot of individuals want some sort of mind reader. This goes deeper than a relationship level, but a friendship level. How can you expect for someone  to be an effective friend if you don’t communicate with them? How can they know what you are going through or how they can help you if you don’t communicate with them? Then there are the individuals that get mad when you ask them too many questions. How are we to build a strong solid friendship if certain parts of your life are omitted because you don’t want to let people in your world? You would much rather go online and vent or put up a front for hundreds of people, half who may not even know or even care who you are, instead of picking up the phone and calling the one’s closest to you. You send people on wild goose chases and get mad when they don’t understand where you are coming from. In order to have a solid relationship you have to build a strong friendship, and in order to do that you have to have a strong source of communication between the two of you. If you meet an individual that you are interested in why not let them in your world. I’m sure it’s not as complicated as you may think it is, and guess what... WE ALL HAVE ISSUES. We have become too lazy and everyone wants things done their way and no one is willing to compromise or sacrifice. A lot of us have allowed social media/networking to operate our lives for us. Some of us wouldn’t know what to do with ourselves without it. Good conversation isn’t dead ok? Try it sometimes. If you have an individual who is willing to be there for you, or even cares about how your day was, or how your family is doing... Tell them. Why be secretive. Just talk! Some people make themselves socially awkward when they don’t have to be, just because they think it’s the best policy. Stop letting of lot of this bad advice change your logical way of thinking.

GM

Grown ass kids

I promise I can’t make this stuff up. Please hear me out tho…

One day I was walking home from school with a childhood neighbor and somehow we got on the topic about sex. ***Clears throat and takes hard slow swallow….. Ummm… See I was in the 3rd grade and she was in the 5th. ***exhales. Anyway! My neighbor said “See me, I hunch, my sista, she hunch and fuck, my momma, well my momma straight fuck”…………….. O_o (only in the 90’s right?)

The sad thing about this story is (and I still can’t remember how this memory came back to mind) I actually felt… ahhh… let’s see…. Inadequate? Sad aint it. An 8 yr old feeling as if she has failed to reach an expected or required level for a child her age. (except for that one time).

When I have kids Imma keep them locked in a box.

STFU sometimes Kia............ DAMN!

I have noticed that everyone doesn’t want you to go against their words. Whether they be pure emotions, testimonies or by the book facts. Everyone is not going to see things from your perspective and everyone is not going to welcome your perspective. For the most part if I see a post that I don’t agree with… I don’t say anything, but if it’s someone that I either know through association or somewhat care about… I sometimes can’t help but speak my peace. I mean I welcome all non-negative feedback even if it goes against what I believe at that time, because I know a person can always learning something new. But this is Facebook, and a lot of people take it serious and I don’t want to be the one that throws a monkey wrench in the mix. So from this point on if I don’t agree with a status…. I will never say a damn thang… lol… I still welcome healthy debates on mine tho!

SN: Be on the lookout for “Going with the Flow” the Kia Flow Show