The Devil's Double

So I watched The Devil’s Double last night. A fact based interpretation of Uday Hussein’s life. Wow was he an evil, nasty, demonic living specimen with the taste for blood dripping from his parotid glandsI cringed not but I did become more appreciative (as if I’m not already). Ladies, imagine your wedding day. One of the happiest days or your life filled with family and friends, love, laughter, music and joy. Nothing could possibly go wrong on this most sacred day… Right? Fellas, imagine being offered the position of “brother” from a man that you know represents everything you are against in life. A man that you would killed if given the opportunity to with no remorse or regret. Imagine being told you have 10 mins to make a decision. Easy choice… Right? Watch this movie.

 

SN: I really don’t like movies like movies like this but it was very informative.

You are such a slut! I don't respect you!

Ladies I learned yesterday that respect is earned, and in our case in order for us to get respect we must wear more clothes, because fewer clothes indicate a lack of respect for one’s self. So put on as many garments as you can because you will get more respect that way.

 

***WARNING***

 

I am being completely sarcastic in this post. By no means do I feel that a woman deserves less respect from anyone because of the clothes she chooses to wear. Those are teachings that have been feed to us forEVER that basically teach us to place women in categories and treat them according to the materials they posses, or the job they have, or WHAT THEY CHOOSE TO WEAR instead of uplifting all women, making them all feel loved, and beautiful and unique. It teaches hate. It teaches a new form of segregation.

Oh but here’s the kicker! You actually shouldn’t expect much respect when you wear less clothing. You are dead wrong if you do. Under no circumstance should you expect to be respected if you wear revealing clothes. This is BS and we need to stop teaching these practices without actually saying “Don’t respect a woman who wears less clothing.” When you tell a woman that if she doesn’t  dress like a slut then she would be respected by a man, that’s basically telling men not to respect a woman that dress like  sluts. How about you take the time to see if she is a slut. It’s not like you’re in rush anyhow, what do you have to do? Live? That’s about it. Once you inquire about her actual occupation, how about you ask her for her name, then what are her dreams, what is she doing to make those dreams come true. Less clothes shouldn’t mean automatic disrespect.

A Few Things I Read on Bing News Today

Apple sues Samsung and HTC instead of Google because it's easier to sue the company actually making a profit from their original creation. Apparently Google makes their revenue from advertising. #AWESOME

Mississippi is the fattest state and Colorado is the thinest. Because I live in Fl of course I had to look and see our ranking....... #32

Jennifer Aniston got proposed to again... Oh and she cried..................

There have been approximately 81 Notable Deaths this year thus far

I read a little bit of "Midday Glance" on Oil Companies. However until gas prices are the price they were when I got my first car back in 2002 (yes) I really don't care.

That's about it. My country disappoints me so I really don't care too much about the fluff they post for "everyone" to see. To me America is no different than a "hot headed" adolescent who does not think before they act. America has big bombs, the youth have big guns. Blah and sad at the same time. I don't have answers or solutions though so I'm just as lost as the country I live in.

Lemon Pie

I wrote this blog to talk about how much I love Krystal's Lemon Pie. I remember the first time I had one. I was originally purchasing the Lemon Pies from Church's Chicken. Those were my pride and joy. Then I filled out a job application at the local Krystal in the Paxon area of town. I think I was studying the menu and noticed the item was for sale. I went into the freezer and got one for my lunch break. Look... I need for you all to understand the different feelings and emotions that were swirling around in my mouth. Fighting with teeth and saliva, it seemed too good to be true, so I took another bite.... OMG!!! I was still a virgin at the time, so biting into that pie felt like the best "rub out" job I had ever had, and it only seemed to be getting better with each bite. I believe somewhere there was a small tear that formed in the corner of my eyes. A tear of satisfaction and delight. I believed from that day forward the stars were aligned perfectly for me and The Lemon Pie. I became addicted. I had to have a Lemon Pie morning, noon and night. I became obsessed. I would get mad at customers for coming in and ordering MY DAMN LEMON PIE. The disrespect. Could they not see the undying love that pie and I shared. Even if it seemed as if I was getting the better end of the deal, the pie completed me. That became my one true reason for living, and there was no customer that would stand in the way of my happiness. I had to make my move quick for I didn't want people to get wind of the pie and I's affair. So one day I asked my manager for a raise. I was going to take my extra money and purchase the pies by the cases. I saw it as an opportunity for us to be together. I had the money and the pies... Well the pies had the sweets. They knew how to fulfill me better than any Caramel Sundae from McDonalds, or Chocolate Chip Cookies from BK or even a hot Apple Pie from Popeye's. Those had been my previous lovers. No... This pie was something special. Needless to say however my manager never gave me a raise and after months and months of watching MY LEMON PIE walk off with various customers... I quit. I couldn't bear to watch my love throw themselves on the first person with a dollar. It made me reevaluate our love and our friendship as a whole. I said some pretty hateful things the last time I saw the pie. But I guess the pie had the final last laugh. That pie caused my stomach to double in size over the course of 7 months. So not a good look for a 10th grader at that time. I was reunited with Lemon Pie today, and boy did it still have that effect on me. I'm no longer a virgin now, and I have condoms... Let's see where tonight will lead us........

Scattered Thoughts 1

Being misunderstood is my curse. A curse that I have lived with for many years. People tend to paint me in the wrong light, so the finished product is just a completely wrong interpretation of me. It angers me, but I can't argue down everyone who does not understand me to try and make them see. So I let it be. I would much rather be true and kind to those who know me than to strong arm my identity for the average peeps. It's not in my DNA. So each day as the time tics away I stay humble and I numb myself to those with loose lips. Those who speak quick without valid evidence, but try to heckle my existence. As if they have the key to what a real human should be. All I know how to do is be me, so why not accept me for me. But to me it's clear that there is fear in what you don't know. There is fear due to the things I don't show. I fear that you will never know. What the true intentions be when it comes down to the flow.

Am I Strong Enough?

I have finally reached my next crossroad. It's been a long journey down that lonely highway. Down this road I saw gas stations pumping hope, and emotional clothing store with the perfect emotion for your size. Various restaurants of temptation serving up full coarse of lustful pleasure at your request. I saw churches of greed, courtrooms of swag, hospitals filled with the back stabbers, banks filled with responsibility and museums filled with my past. Filled with past crossroads that I traveled through. Some I had been forced to visit several times because I never went down the right road, but when I did finally walk that journey, I learned a lesson. I learned values, and responsibilities that would assure I would make it down my next road unscathed. There may be some possible heartache but it's nothing that a human was created not to over come. But I'm now at the crossroad we all may bear at some point in our life. Some sooner than others. I don't want to make the wrong decision. What if the wrong road is a dead end road. Will I be strong enough to walk back through those obstacles?

Excuse me... You have something in your eye

I just love how people are so quick to place blame and point fingers as if their closet only contains clothes and shoes.

There is a man somewhere in this world who hates men who beat on women, but he rapes little boys.

There is a woman somewhere who would never cheat on her husband with a man, but will eat the hell out some p****

There is a pastor who pays his tithes and offering faithfully but doesn’t pay his child support.

There is a doctor that’s a serial killer. There is a breast cancer survivor deliberately giving people AIDS.

We all have things that we are passionate about and probably would never ever do in our lifetime, but let’s not forget about that things that we have done or what we ARE doing that others may frown upon.

“How can you get the splinter out my eye, when you have a log in yours?”….

Busting Windows eh?

I’m starting to almost understand why women go around and slash men tires and bust out windows (I WOULD NEVER DO THAT….. TOO SCARED). I see firsthand the EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER some women are placed on.  It’s not right and a lot of times men have these women hearts and minds on a string playing with them like puppets. A lot of times I don’t see stupidity when I look at these women faces and hear their stories. I see hurt and love intertwined into one (Deadly Combination). I went through it, so I know it’s not easy. But it takes a STRONG WOMAN to let go and move on. It takes a STRONG WOMAN to say, I can’t take it anymore. It takes a STRONG WOMAN to realize that although her love for him may never subside, she has to do what’s best for her. Ladies don’t slash his tires, slash his heart. Walk away, Let Go, Move on and Live life. This world is a beautiful place filled with beautiful people. You’re bound to find the one meant for you in due time. #DONTBENOONESFOOL

GM

Communication is the Best Policy

There is a great lack of communication between man and woman today. It seems as if a lot of individuals want some sort of mind reader. This goes deeper than a relationship level, but a friendship level. How can you expect for someone  to be an effective friend if you don’t communicate with them? How can they know what you are going through or how they can help you if you don’t communicate with them? Then there are the individuals that get mad when you ask them too many questions. How are we to build a strong solid friendship if certain parts of your life are omitted because you don’t want to let people in your world? You would much rather go online and vent or put up a front for hundreds of people, half who may not even know or even care who you are, instead of picking up the phone and calling the one’s closest to you. You send people on wild goose chases and get mad when they don’t understand where you are coming from. In order to have a solid relationship you have to build a strong friendship, and in order to do that you have to have a strong source of communication between the two of you. If you meet an individual that you are interested in why not let them in your world. I’m sure it’s not as complicated as you may think it is, and guess what... WE ALL HAVE ISSUES. We have become too lazy and everyone wants things done their way and no one is willing to compromise or sacrifice. A lot of us have allowed social media/networking to operate our lives for us. Some of us wouldn’t know what to do with ourselves without it. Good conversation isn’t dead ok? Try it sometimes. If you have an individual who is willing to be there for you, or even cares about how your day was, or how your family is doing... Tell them. Why be secretive. Just talk! Some people make themselves socially awkward when they don’t have to be, just because they think it’s the best policy. Stop letting of lot of this bad advice change your logical way of thinking.

GM

Grown ass kids

I promise I can’t make this stuff up. Please hear me out tho…

One day I was walking home from school with a childhood neighbor and somehow we got on the topic about sex. ***Clears throat and takes hard slow swallow….. Ummm… See I was in the 3rd grade and she was in the 5th. ***exhales. Anyway! My neighbor said “See me, I hunch, my sista, she hunch and fuck, my momma, well my momma straight fuck”…………….. O_o (only in the 90’s right?)

The sad thing about this story is (and I still can’t remember how this memory came back to mind) I actually felt… ahhh… let’s see…. Inadequate? Sad aint it. An 8 yr old feeling as if she has failed to reach an expected or required level for a child her age. (except for that one time).

When I have kids Imma keep them locked in a box.

STFU sometimes Kia............ DAMN!

I have noticed that everyone doesn’t want you to go against their words. Whether they be pure emotions, testimonies or by the book facts. Everyone is not going to see things from your perspective and everyone is not going to welcome your perspective. For the most part if I see a post that I don’t agree with… I don’t say anything, but if it’s someone that I either know through association or somewhat care about… I sometimes can’t help but speak my peace. I mean I welcome all non-negative feedback even if it goes against what I believe at that time, because I know a person can always learning something new. But this is Facebook, and a lot of people take it serious and I don’t want to be the one that throws a monkey wrench in the mix. So from this point on if I don’t agree with a status…. I will never say a damn thang… lol… I still welcome healthy debates on mine tho!

SN: Be on the lookout for “Going with the Flow” the Kia Flow Show

I'm so Basic

So if I chose to wear flat backless flip/flop sandals to the club/bar/lounge/restaurant does that mean I’m rachet, or don’t care about my appearance? What clubs/bars/lounges/restaurants are flat backless flip/flop sandals appropriate? Should some women have shoe guidelines like men do? Let’s take it one step further. What if there were guidelines to what shoes a woman can wear to a certain club in order to be granted access (like they do for the men.) I’m not being funny I guess I just wanna know so I can be like “Everyone” else ya know. I mean if it’s not a good look for me to wear a shoe like that even if it matches my ensemble, and my feet had been killing me all day and I just wanted to be comfortable and enjoy a good show amongst friends……….. Just let me know so I can change……....... and be like EVERYONE ELSE. (Sigh….. Sounds very boring, but what the hell… This is what I need to do to be accepted…….. Right?)

Big Red was a bad ass!

Just for anyone who wants to know, my uncle was Big Red! He had certain methods of conducting business that I was not too fond of but one method that he was firm about always stuck with me. His office hours and they were strictly from 9 – 5. Now what I need people to understand is my office hours are the same but they fluctuate depending on money and opportunity. Money talks and bull s*** gets hung off the balcony.

"I'm not a bitch, I'm just unreceptive to things I don't understand."

This is what I texted a guy today. For every day he sends something nice to my phone. Something like mere well wishes. Something I rarely get from guys that claim to be into me and want to see where it goes. This guy, not really my cup of tea in the looks category, but one who possesses intellect that would over shadow any dimple in the cheek or flex of a bicep any day. We met under some not so “open to talk about circumstances” but have never been intimate in any sort, but he admires me. I can tell. I can tell by the way he uses correct capitalization and punctuation when texting me each day. He puts thought into his words. Never coming off dominant or abrasive, I know he falls in the dirt every time I reply with a one worded answer. He is determined. I can tell because each day he still sends me well wishes. This lets me know he picks himself back up and brushes the dirt off. I think that he really “Hopes I have a good day” or he really wants me to have a “Good Morning.” I have started to take notice. There was once a time when I would have a look of complete disgust on my face when he texted me each morning. That look has now been replaced with a slight smile and an extra word in my reply. He knows he’s getting to me. It was his plan. He shows signs of a man we rarely see these days. A man that goes for what he wants. Even if he is never successful at obtaining that rare jewel (me), he knows that he gave it his all. But on the flip side he may not be in search of anything. Just a man who’s interest has been sparked by a woman he is intrigued by and wants to keep contact if for nothing more than a friendship via text. He has taught me something valuable and he may never know it. I am just glad that he didn’t call it quits a long time ago because "I'm not a bitch, I'm just unreceptive to things I don't understand."

This is me

Self-Confidence

As someone with high self-confidence, you feel quite comfortable interacting with other people. Indeed, you find the company of others very stimulating and enjoy meeting new people. Your relaxed demeanor in groups makes people around you comfortable too. Perhaps because you feel comfortable talking about yourself, others tend to enjoy being around you and perceive you as socially competent.

The confidence that helps you feel comfortable talking to people also spills into your own personal beliefs about yourself. Although you have several strengths, it’s likely that you also acknowledge and accept your weaknesses. But unlike some people, you take full responsibility for your actions—you rarely regret things you’ve done in the past and are not embarrassed easily.

Perhaps the defining feature that sets you apart from most people is the exceptionally high standards that you set for yourself. Your competence in social gatherings as well as at work should provide ample evidence for this. With these characteristics, it’s very likely that people come to you for advice and generally think of you as someone with leader-like qualities.

Greenville NC

Through the past few month I have begun to at least try and apply a basic instruction that was said to me over and over again as a child about “Thinking Before I Speak.” HA! “When does she ever do that?” you ask? Lol I do it from time to time and this time will be no exception. Sometimes you have to let go and let things fall into perspective on their own. Although I hate the business decisions made by some “business minded” individuals, I have to learn to go with the flow, learn from the mistakes made by others and make calculated decisions on dealing with those individuals again. All without putting my name in jeopardy.

I want to give a special THANK YOU to Michael Burnett. With the exception of Ill Clinton, this weekend was my first time actually being treated like AN ARTIST. I actually am not a hard to please individual but I was accommodated as an artist that is “booked” or “requested” is suppose to be. I actually saw this man hit the streets head first as soon as we touched down in Greenville.

This experience showed me that I NEED TO DO MORE OUT OF TOWN SHOWS. No disrespect to my home city because the love and support is there, but there are actually a lot of cities that know nothing about pure, live, grown folk entertainment. Oh and they show major love to “The new talent in town.” (cha-ching)

GM!

You make me sick

You got too many young (think they’re grown), or bad decision making people on Facebook giving bad advice. I have seen some of the STUPIDEST beliefs and ways of thinking posted on FB. When I further examine the people that post them, I think to myself, WHAT THE HELL MAKES YOU THINK YOU CAN PROVIDE ADVICE TO ANYONE. Just my thoughts. Various cries out for help are being guided by FB Philosophers. You got folk trying to prophesize on people’s lives and be DEAD ASS WRONG. Women and Men who can barely keep a spouse giving relationship advice. People telling you what a REAL WOMAN or REAL MAN is and half of them don’t live up the half the crap they post about.

I am sooo serious when I say yal need to cut this mess out! Yeah I’m goofy, vulgar and unscripted, but if I don’t know it to be true, I’m not really going to speak on it unless it’s all in fun and laughs. Bout time to start cleaning my friends list and begin getting more realistic people on my TL. I like Facebook because I feel it’s a good way of socializing, but some folk are just…………….. UHG!!! JMT!

Dnt wear it if you can't take it

I can understand and completely agree with a woman getting mad if a man touches her without permission, but you shouldn’t get mad if he is gawking at your physical attributes that you decided to show off. That I don’t understand. For whatever reason you wore it, you had to have thought about the possible feedback you would get so don’t get mad if it’s not the feedback you want. That’s life. You put on your attire knowing that everyone does not have tact or respect and that you would run the risk of some negative attention. Be grown and think before you put something on. If you can’t handle various signs of attention you may wanna look in your closet and find something diff to wear. And this is coming from a woman who shows her cleavage at least 4 times a week. I do it because I like it and I don’t care what others may say just as long as you don’t touch me. IJS.

Doomed

It is my credence that we as humans are mere test subjects for a superior plan of world supremacy for a civilization that is equipped for the right time to not necessarily annihilate the human race but control us with the click of a button. We have been programmed and computerized down to a science. Because we are diverted by the baloney fed to us we will never surpass this elite group of men and women.

I’m interested in the alleged Concentration Camps in America however I can’t seem to find a credible site to give me more info on these findings. Any of my smart FB friends know anything about this and or how can I find accurate and factual proof of these camps?

Music will you Marry Me?

I can understand the reasoning in an artist being discouraged to continue their art when it doesn’t seem to be recognized in their own home (city), however the question comes… “What were you really doing it for?” I personally feel that it’s unfair for you to hold your talent captive just because some people don’t appreciate it. What about those that do appreciate it. If a lot of artist decided to throw in the towel because their music was rarely getting recognized we wouldn’t have such beautiful Genres such as Blues, Rock, Soul, R&B, Contemporary and etc. (Frankie Beverly and Maze are GREAT examples) Those genres have stood the test of times because ARTIST NEVER STOP making those types of classics. To me that separates the dynasties from the fads.  So before you think about unplugging the cord to the mic, or closing the guitar case, or covering the piano keys, think about the legacy of music. Think about how far music has come. Think about the songs our ancestors use to sing (all races). Think about what it has done for you. Think about how you would feel if your favorite artist decided to throw in the towel. Some of us have a talent that can’t be taught or bought. It was a reason it was bestowed upon you. So if you birthed it…. Let it live.

~Kia Flow

“You should have married music, Her melody echoes through your veins, Your souls are compatible you’re one in the same, Her very temple set your soul to flames. And the love in your hearts is hers “

~Seven Soul Jones

Cuming Up in the Game

#RANDOM: I have noticed that the porn stars of today are starting to take better care of their appearance in these films. The hair styles are on point (so much so I actually took a still shot of a scene and printed it out to show my beautician the style I wanted), their nails are fly, make up #BEAT, no crochets and stuff… Yeah I’m proud of the billion dollar business. They are finally doing something with all that money they get.

The Hype Aint Right

I can’t help but wonder what will be the demise of this human race/civilization this time around.  I think about that phrase that says “We are the microwave generation.” We want things done fast and right now and we want everything at the click of a mouse. I listened to a piece yesterday by Lauren Zuniga titled “Energy Drinks” and it just put so many things into prospective for me. I think one day we will just be too tired to do anything and we may just “sleep” away. (I’m thinking too deep over here, feel free to bypass this post if you need to). But she was talking about how we need energy boosters in order to stay awake or function, but she questioned “Why are we so tired?” We are doing nothing more than what our ancestors did. We work, we play, we reproduce and we die. Just as our ancestors did, so why are we so tired? I think that we mentally drain ourselves with the notions of the right now and when the right now gets old we go to the next new rave. We have completely blocked out natural life and filled our mind with falsified beings and ways of living that cause us to either go broke, lose our mind or death.

#SELF.DESTRUCTION.WE’RE.HEADED.FOR.SELF.DESTRUCTION

Ol Grand Aaaahhh

Is it me or does it seem like the people who always say “Oh you think you better than somebody” or “They done got grand nah” are the ones………. Not really doing anything with themselves?

And wouldn’t it be fair to say that as long as a person continues to settle or be stagnant in their situation they will ALWAYS think that the person that is actually applying themselves is “Trying” to act grand or be better than somebody?

Shouldn’t EVERYONES ultimate goal be to “Be better” and “Go for the Grand?”

Inspire You, Let Me Please

Remember no one can make you let go. Until you are ready to release you will forever hold on. Now whether that issue/person/thing are worthy of holding on to is your call. Just know sometimes….. It’s ok to let go……..

My uncle Jermaine always told me "Don't take it personal, take the bitter witht he sweet, easy come, easy goes"

Sometimes you have to leave well enough alone.... Ijs

Checkin on ya man huh?

Yal know I always have a story for yal right? Well this one has inspired me to write a poem about Social Networking and Insecure Females… Be on the lookout for my #NEWSHYT

Anyway! So I’m on twitter, getting my tweet on. I responded to a tweet from a guy and not getting in too much detail (because this post will be longAF) but basically we made each other’s acquaintance via Twitter. No biggie righ...t? Well I guess his boo thang saw it and didn’t like it, so she wanted to try and “Check” us. So I responded by saying something like “On this week’s episode of when relationships meet twitter”, so then she was like “uh huh now back to your regularly scheduled program”, so then he was like “well I guess the queen has spoke”, so then I was like “oh that’s fine but just know I got mine, besides this is twitter #IMNOTTHIRSTY”. So no more interactions at that point, but then I saw the chick was sellin out on her TL without mentioning me (Smart move).

So now we’re here. Ladies if you have to check your man’s post, tweets, emails or text in order to feel secure, you are sad, lost, dumb, tired, stupidAF, hopeless, confused, lost, insane, thirsty, foolish, twisted and just BAD OFF like a mutha. A true genuine relationship doesn’t have room for all that because it’s too busy reaping the benefits of love, honesty, respect and blah blah blah. Some of yal need to examine your relationship statuses a little deeper than clicking a button on FB and such.

~Kia Flow

They're Not Racist You're Just Stupid

This is just my personal opinion (duh). I do acknowledge that racism is still prevalent today, but I think that some of the things “us blacks” deem as being racist is really just stereotypes and truth be told……….. WE DO THE SAME DAMN THING. Case and point: I went out with a friend and her friend. The friend was trying to get the waitresses (white) attention but didn’t know her name. So she said “I... should say hey Molly, come here please” and I was like now what if she said “Ok Jaqueta, I’ll be there in a min.” So then she was like oh I’ll curse her out and blah blah blah (typical black ppl response).

I guess I just hate the fact that a lot of blacks are so quick to call a white person racist over a sometimes OBVIOUS Stereotype, but we do the same thing. Although ppl want to get pass the color barrier, I doubt that will ever come (unless all the races continue to reproduce with one another forming a new race). Embrace who you are and show no shame. Those that can’t except it/you are not worthy of your time. But don’t be so quick to point the finger before examining yourself first.

QOD

Question of the Day: Do you think it’s appropriate to stick to the phrase “If it ain’t broke don’t fix it” when it comes down to long term relationships without marriage, or do you think that after a certaint period of time the adult/mature thing to do is to go ahead and tie the knot?

Don't be a FB Thug

Before you think about getting into an argument on FB please do the following steps.

1. Review the case

2. Look over the testimonies and evidence

3. Make an educated/calculated decision

WE need to stop putting our energy into BS and let pointless/meaningless things go.

Simple Me

I’m starting to get like my grandma when it comes down to receiving gifts. I’ll ask her what she wants for her Birthday or Christmas and she’ll say “just give me a toaster, or an ironing board.” When someone ask me what I want for my bday Imma say “Some damn groceries”

Mr. Knickerbocker

Hey Mr. Knickerbocker boppity-bop.
I like a the way, that you boppity-bop.
with your mouth

Yeah! :)

Jacksonville Fl (My City)

Did you know that I can find something to do EVERYDAY/NIGHT of the week in Jacksonville FL? If you can’t that means you are either not diverse and like your current environment (which there is nothing wrong with that…… I think… O_o) or you are diverse, you just don’t hang around the appropriate group of people. For those who are interested in finding new things to do in the city besides, clubbing ...when night falls or catching a movie, pick up a Folio Weekly or EU. They are filled with many spots that you, your family and your friends can hang out at or explore. Anything from Theater, to Outdoor Movies in the Park, Live Bands, Museums and Amazing Restaurants.

There are also websites that you can check out (what-a-ya-know I can’t think of any right now). I’ll ask my FB friends to chime in and help some of yal lost souls out!

#EXPLORE

Pessimist

I’m sure this may not be new to everyone, but I find that people who are usually angry, rude, have bad attitudes or who are pessimistic generally are not happy with their lives. I guess I can’t see a point or purpose in behaving in such a way unless you are just pissed at the cards you were dealt and or you don’t know how to play your hand. My good friend Jessica stated in the post I made about th...e Blacks and Stereotyping, that usually the individual’s surroundings or situations they place themselves in normally contributes to this sort of conduct. If you’re obscured to deep in junk and mess (a term my former pastor use to say) that you can’t see the light which is available to you as well as everyone else, you may need to climb through or knock the debris out the way (change your situation) so that you can get the light that is rightfully yours. JTM

Im Lame

As a child Norman Connors – Starship and Rose Royce’s – Love Don’t Live here Anymore & Wishing on a Star use to scare the monkey fart out of me. I mean like I would cry whenever I heard it on the radio and I was raised by my grandparents so you know I heard it often (Solid Gold Soul AM 1400 before The Light Gospel Station). Now those are 3 of my all-time fav old skool cuts.

LMAOATTPIUBAPOWRGIATITTCHTNOY!!!!

LMAOATTPIUBAPOWRGIATITTCHTNOY!!!!

LAUGHED MY ASS OFF AND TRIED TO PICK IT UP BUT A PACK OF WILD RACOONS GRABBED IT AND TOOK IT TO THE COURT HOUSE THAT'S NOT OPEN YET

Brainwashed Big Time

My last post just made me realize how brainwashed we “blacks” are on EVERYTHING. But the thing I hate about realizing that fact is the fact that I become angered, and I pride myself on being a happy, optimistic individual. So it makes me wonder can I ever just be DEEP or DOWN TO MY ROOTS without being angry, because the fact is, when the truth is presented I begin to see the world much more differently and I realize that the world is so eff’d up. Not made for people like me. People like me basically GO ALONG TO GET ALONG, because we don’t like conflict. But the truth is I’m sad for the youth, I’m sad for these so called parents, I’m sad for the poor, I’m sad for the lost. But I feel STUCK!

Your environment and situations depict your character and perception of things, circumstances and solutions. I remember Adi Hamilton posted a pic of a lady in the grocery store. She was shopping in sweat pants, tennis shoes and an oversized shirt. What stood out was the sweat that formed under her butt cheeks that was present on the back of her pants. I saw comments such as “Oh she dirty” or “she sweaty and nasty” or “her ***** prolly stank” and blah blah blah… However I took 1 look at the picture and said “Oh it’s simple…. THE LADY JUST CAME FROM THE FUCKIN GYM!”

People kill me sometimes!

I'm happiest when I'm on the stage and that's where I want to be. I find peace and solitude when I'm speaking/singing to the masses.

It's time to turn the heat up!

Awkward Moment

That awkward moment when a piece of chocolate falls down your shirt and you reach in there to get it and eat it and your boss walks pass… O_o

I ain't sensitive

WOW!!! I just had a guy tell me I’m not sensitive enough!! O_o I was not offended at all because this is something I know, but now I’m here: Do I change who I am for an individual, or do I stay the way I am? I’m not opposed to either just want to know what other people would do in that situation. So I guess this would be my “Question of the Day”

All Yal Ragaly

Jus like there are a lot of women out here with kids there are men that prolly triple that number. Jus like women wear the weaves and make ups covering the natural beauty there are men that cover up with their purchased materials also (car, clothes, gadgets). Don't for one minute think that a lot of us aren't lost in the glam we. See on tv and hear on the radio. In my book no one is better than the next if you're putting on a front. Ijs

Colonial Penn

These Colonial Penn commercials always have my undivided attention....

Change?

I’m currently in search of something different in my life. For some reason the word “Change” keeps plaguing me and I think it’s bigger/deeper than just cutting my hair or shedding some pounds or moving to another part of town. I have always been an individual that hated being complacent. I think that if a person finds themselves bored with their day to day rituals at that point it’s time to make a change.

ha!

Tumble Weeds

Lately there has been something going on in my life…. Or shall I say NOT going on in my life which I find unusual. I mean no matter what avenues I search it just never happens. Not sure what is going on with The Kid but tumble weeds are passing through my garden in numbers I have not seen in a long while. I think I am having a mid life crisis and I need help.

I wonder what could I do to rectify this issue…..

The Evil Monkey wants this Monkey

TLC

Ha! Someone just told me how TLC I was and I was like huh? TLC? And he said Crazy Sexy Cool… #BOOM

That’s me, I’m claiming it! It’s mine! All day! All night! Byron Long! Betty Wright! 1 bed, 1 pillow, 1 remote, 2 shots! 2 cccchhhhhaaaaiiiinnnssss!!!

The Disrepect and The G for a Grandma

Flashback: 13 yrs old. I was getting "flip" at the mouth with my grandma. So she started fussing at me and I said something smart. All I remember is being at the edge of the steps and the only thing that kept me from falling was my grandma's hands around the neck line of my shirt! She said girl if you ever disrespect me again I WILL KILL YOU!

I've been a good girl ever since

Mississippi the City

Haha! John P Kee said he was going on tour or something and that he was looking for some cities to go to.... This lady said...... Wait for it.......

Mississippi!!!!!

#DEAD

Massachusetts

I can't pronounce Massachusetts

I always say Masa-2-shits

Or

Mastra tu Shrits

O_o

Deepness

Life has been my biggest self help book. Life and actual interactions with people. I learned a long time ago to heed the warning signs placed in my path and use my mental compass to direct my path in the right direction. I pay attention to details and make many "Note to Selfs" for easy references.

Sn: Sorry if I offend people in the things I say or post but I wouldn't be true to myself if I kept it inside because of who I might offend.

The Trainer Man

Part 1: I went to work out with a trainer yesterday at my gym. We did a few routines that really put a burn on certain parts of my body #GREAT, but there was one in particular that made me raise my eyebrow just a smidge… I was doing sit ups and he (the trainer) used the exercise ball to hold my feet. He sat on the ball facing me to keep the ball steady #COOL. The thing is every time I came up…….. His balls were in my face!!!! I mean is that wrong? I mean he didn’t smell or anything but yeah…. Nuts were inadvertently (?) in my face yo! #ATALOSSFORWORDS

He was also talking about how I had a strong stature, and how I was bow legged, and that I was pretty but too young, and he could tell I had a smart mouth. He then gave me my BMI and other numbers, one being his cell phone number and highlighted all the numbers I should use………. His phone number being one of them…. LMAO and SMH’ing

She wants my body

There’s a lady at my job that I am starting to try and avoid as much as possible. Why? Her compliments! They are just over the top! They are borderline too sexual or just too “Sista-girlish” for my liking. There are the sound effects “mmmmm mmmm mm” or “Awww sookie sookie nah!” Then the rolling of the neck, then her eyes enlarge and the fingers get to pointing and I know when she really likes something because she gets to touching. Then she starts talking about how she was just like me “back in her day” and blah blah blah…. I’m just frightened ok…. Just frightened and I’m shaking inside…